17 December 2010

Freedom Day 16.12.2010

wow...it quite ages ago i didnt upload my blog...
2day is 16 december 2010..It is a special day that for STPM-er 2010 science stream students because 2day is our last paper in STPM..a day that we waited for a year and half..

it quite unbelievable that i manage to finish up my STPM life and exam...
in this one and half year really happen a lot of things...bitter sweet memories are filling my form 6 memories..
time flies without realise...this time reali gonna say goodbye to my secondary school...no more chances to study there anymore...i studied in stk for 7 years dy...wow...amazing..hahahhaa

today is a freedom day...just like a prisoner been released from prison.i had stayed in STK's prison for 7 years.this freedom will last for 9 months if my results enable me to enter local university. 9 months indeed is a very long holidays for a students.I not going to waste my 9 months olidays just like tat..i had planned my holidays..hope everythings goes as what i planned..

i planned for the 1st 3 months i will find a job and work because want to earn money.then the following months i plan to find volunteering job.i want to fill my holidays with meaningful activities like helping ppl.i hope i can find my life goal in this holidays because now i'm kinda lost.i had lost my direction since the begining of the year.so, i hope i can found it back soon..

anyway..hope all my dear friends will have a wonderful and awesome holidays

to all my dear friends..dont burn the books and notes..donates it to those in need~ ^_^

29 November 2010

Stop Child Abuse

Child abuse isnt a new issues for us...
Child abuse is physcial, sexual or emotional mistreatment of children..
i hate the most is child abuse..children are the most weak bunch of peoples in our society..
they need love and care...not abuse..
children should be treat with love and care...

There are four major categories which are physical abuse, neglect, sexual abuse and emotional abuse.

i hate the most is sexually abuse..
when children become victim of sexually abuse, they wont even dare to tell anyone..and this will create thought of phobia towards opposite gender...
In Malaysia, child abuse cases are getting more and more...keep increasing..
According to Social Welfare Department of Malaysia indicated each year at least 1,000 children in Malaysia are reported as victims. With high statistics of child abuse, children rights are taken away and children also loose the opportunity to live healthy and happily. Children are deserve to live healthy and happily but because of those "animal", they loose the opportunity.


                      In my opinion, child abuse is the most cruel action.Children are innocent,naive and weak.Why there are humans still bear to hurt them?why?? Is that our society is ailing now?? They are given an opportunity to live healthy and happily, but those peoples behave like animal have grab their opportunity.Those "animals" have make children lost the opportunity and creating a lot social problems.Child abuse cases are mostly found in poor family environment especially those where children are exposed to physical, mental and sexual abuse, as well as neglect, leave children vulnerable to major physical and emotional problems later in life.When children are been neglected and uncare,they tend to drop out of school and may eventually run away from home or having phobia in the rest of their life.

   i hate the most action of child abuse is sexually abuse, so i will going to talk about sexually abuse cases.


                  Sexual abuse effects on children and youth can be evident in emotional, physical and behavioural ways. These effects can be just as devastating whether there was only one occurrence or there were repeated occurrences. Sexual abuse cannot be compared, because each abuse experience is unique.
 
Vulnerability Factors:

i) Age
    Children are youngs and still in the progress of growth.Some peoples are interested on molesting children that undergo growth process where they normally are not alert been molested or sexually abuse.Some peoples found that is interesting in molesting a not fully growth.
ii) Size
   Children's size normally is smaller than adult and this enable predator to catch or hunt.They are easily be lift up or hug or kidnap.
iii) innocence
   Children are normally having little knowledge about sex.They don't know what is sex and sexually abuse.They dont know where are the sensitive parts and when to say "NO".

Effect of Sexually Abuse
1) anxiety
 2) fear
3) shame
4) a sense of inadequacy
5) the need to control situations and others
6)a perception of self as victim
7) identification with the aggressor
8) emotional trauma

Emotional and Physical Sexual Abuse Effects:
Molested children suffer many losses, including: self-esteem and self-worth,trust,childhood, including the opportunity to play and learn,the opportunity for normal growth and development,intimacy,control over is/her body,normal loving and nurturing,safety and security.








Ten Ways to Help Prevent Child Abuse


1) Be a nurturing parent.
Children need to know that they are special, loved and capable of following their dreams.

2)Help a friend, neighbor or relative.
Being a parent isn’t easy. Offer a helping hand take care of the children, so the parent(s) can rest or spend time together.

3)Help yourself.
When the big and little problems of your everyday life pile up to the point you feel overwhelmed and out of control – take time out. Don’t take it out on your kid.

4)If your baby cries…
It can be frustrating to hear your baby cry. Learn what to do if your baby won’t stop crying. Never shake a baby – shaking a child may result in severe injury or death.

5)Get involved.
Ask your community leaders, clergy, library and schools to develop services to meet the needs of healthy children and families.

6)Help to develop parenting resources at your local library.

7)Promote programs in school.
Teaching children, parents and teachers prevention strategies can help to keep children safe.
8) Monitor your child’s television and video viewing.
Watching violent films and TV programs can harm young children.

9) Volunteer at a local child abuse prevention program.

10) Report suspected abuse or neglect.
If you have reason to believe a child has been or may be harmed, call your local department of children and family services or you local police department.


unicef

09 November 2010

last day of preu

2day miss foo told us that our last day of preu schooling day is on 15 nov which is next monday....
one and half year ago, we just enter preu life..
so fast, it gonna end soon...
still left bout 3 days to go....
our preu schooling life gonna put a full stop...

reali cant believe that, time passed without we realised...
time is the thief of our memories.....
hope in this few weeks day...
we put our best foot forward to combat in this war...

往事只能回味

我累了。。
不再抱太大的希望。。
知道你最近都很忙。。。
知道你最近都很压力。。
知道你最近都很累。。。
知道你最近都没有精神。。

有可能你是真的没有时间理我啦。。
但感觉上。。
你应景把我这个朋友给忘了。。。。
我们再也不像以前那样了。。。。。

往事只能回味。。

04 November 2010

STPM Trial Papers Collection

hey guyz...
stpm is around the corner..
i bet most of u all are searching the websites that provides 2010 trial papers rite..
i found one more website..

http://cid-3a0d94b6f43a6f77.office.live.com/browse.aspx/.Documents/STPM%20Trial%202010

take a look...
his name is Emeth
thx for his sharing

25 October 2010

left less than a month

STPM left less than a month time..
as time passed..i'm lossing my motivation..lossing my spirit of strive...
can any1 let me noe why?

time getting shorter and shorter...
my motivation getting weaker and weaker...
my laziness getting worse

when i saw ppl surrounding me r well prepared..
did a lot revision..
i'm felt i'm totally lost...
felt no more confidence..
no more courage to face it....

how i gonna get back my confidence,courage and motivation?

08 October 2010

STPM, SPM,PMR Trial Paper Collection

i received a link of STPM,SPM and PMR Trial Paper Collection..
it contain of STPM 2010 Trial Paper...
http://papercollection.batukawa.info/

then i found a msn user who share all the states trial paper 2010 of STPM
his name is Riddick Wong..
want to thx him for sharing all the trial paper
http://cid-8104a436014490a6.office.live.com/browse.aspx/.Documents

good luck to all candidates of STPM,SPM and PMR

07 October 2010

photography section for year end book 2010

2day, all the upper six are having the photography section for year end book...
my class had took a lot photos..a lot happy moment ...laughters...
we even lay down on the field to take photos..
a very nice and unforgettable moment in my life...
 in tis one n half years, we spent our life in form 6..
having sweet+bitter+sad+excitement moment...

青春挥霍不用钱,穿着校服拍整天,有汗蚂蚁和同学,还有笑声一整天,如果时间能暂停,但愿我们常伴随!

i realises tat camera reali can capture and freeze the happy moment in our life ...
although i knew tat time cant stop at the happy moment.
but i can use the lens of camera to capture the happy moment n let it remain forever...
although today is a tiring day..but it worth it...












06 October 2010

Warning from someone

Whatever things u posted in Facebook,you should noe ppl will share,tag and comment on it...if u cant take it dun post here..or put privacy when u post it..


WTH of warning someone who share n tag bout it!
 
last few days, my frenz came back from a sch camp..one of them wrote on how they pass through tat one day one nite camp..i read the article and found it, it is a disaster...
 
the next day(4.10.10) , my frenz explained to me what had happen in the camp...
In the same day, when i surf facebook at evening, i saw my another friends posted something..so i went in and read it..it is about the apologize of the president of organizing tat camp..who dun hv fb..so he borrow others acc and post tat apologize notes in fb...then i share it..and i tag 2 of my friends..one is wrote an article bout the camp and another one is my kinda good frenz..coz i wanna let them c tat president is apologize in fb..i didnt intend to create misunderstanding among them...i juz afraid they cant c it..so i tagged them..
 
5.10.2010, in the morning, i was busy finding teacher n asking teacher things in chem lab and staff room...when i'm back to class...suddenly my "friend who wrote the article" asked my why i tagged them in the link? Do u want let whole world noe we unhappy bout him izzit? then i juz reply..i juz wanan let u all read tat article onli...
on the same day,at nite after tuition..bout 6.30pm i deleted that link..i thought ntg wont happen already coz i deleted...

6.10.10
2day after sch i received a msg from mr.y..
 
1st message
" wei peng, do not try to create misunderstanding between those who participate in the camp..it's totally not you bussiness! thx 4 caring so much!!!! "
 
2nd message
"Mind ur word..dnt try to pretend ntg happened..wat for u tag asy n tracy? very happy to see ppl fighting?!! "
 
Moral of the story :
Whatever things u had posted in fb, u have to expect that will hv ppl share,tag and comment on it..if u cant take it then dont post in fb or u can put privacy when posting it...
Dont blame and giving warning to others if u cant take it...
Facebook is a social networking website..ppl having their rights in publish,share,comment and tag on whatever things they want..

04 October 2010

BSMM Farewell Dinner 2.10.2010

Date : 2.10.2010
Time : 7.30pm-10.00pm
Venue : Prime City Hotel,kluang

this is the twice time i attended BSMM farewell dinner as an outgoing bod...
once is when i'm form 5 and another one is when upper six...
i still remember last year BSMM farewell dinner was full with surprises, fun and happiness..
where hon cheun one of my senior, 告白...reali an unforgettable moment..where we all were shocked...
reali amazing and brave and a lot of courage to do so...
Moreover is infornt of so many ppl include seniors and juniors...
last year the game was awesome too...where we play human sculpture..
where everyone playing a role in producing a beautiful scenery...

this year farewell dinner was as interesting as last year..where we dun hv ppl like hon cheun..
tis year the emcee were great..joy and wai kin..both good ...
this year the sitting arrangement had been fixed earlier..where we hv to sit according to the namelist where it is according to post and table...
this make us unable to sit with our good friends..
this year, the prepared a video clip full of pictures...mainly is the BSMM camp in JB where only daniel,tan jun,ce kie,si sheng and vincent went...
a lot of funny pic..make all of us laugh non-stop...
after the video clip, it was a game conducted by yen yee..
putting a slide of potatoes chip on the forehead..
and try to eat it...
after all the game, we had celebrated lee hong n jia min bday...which are october babies...
then we took photos 2gether...












27 September 2010

sorry tracy

i'm felt very sorry to tracy...
i nvr expected that he gt a lot pattern and caused a lot problems to u...
i'm reali wanna say thousand of sorry...
juz hope tat u dun angry...

i'm too kepo dy...
who ask me so kepo go help ppl..
now causing my frenz unhappy n bo shuang...
causing a lot probs to myself...
why i'm so kepo..
i shouldnt be so kepo next time...

i'm reali sorry to tracy...
i oso speechless towards his behaviour...

18 September 2010

my birthday 2010..19th years old

this year i'm glad that i'm having a bunch of great friends and family..
this year i had celebrated 6 times of my birthday celebration...
1st time- with all ex-stk..we celebrate for september babies..
2nd time - with my dar dar...i thought tat day went out is juz for yam cha...but they gave me a surprise..thx all my dar dar..i was shocked and i love the present very much..my 1st bday surprise
3rd time - with my family...my daddy treat whole family eat pizza hut..and my sis n bro bought me a marble cheese cake from secret recipe...
4rd time - with my consumer club bod 2009/2010 and bod of 2010/2011..tat day i reali thought is juz a farewell party of consumer club....unexpected and surprises from them...after finish dinner..they suddenly brought a cake n sing bday song..reali shocked..but is my 2nd bday surprises...
5th time - with my classmate...reali appreaciate them for willing sacrifices their revision time to come out v me..we had lunch at uncle frog..then we went to U box for sing k...sang for 3 hours...enjoyable..love it..
6th time- mummy said tat day daddy treat me eat pizza hut..den mummy treat me eat others stuff...to celebrate my bday....

this year bday i received bout 400+++ bday wishes from all my frenz,relatives and family..
thx very much..u all gave me an unforgettable memories...although most of them help me celebrate earlier than my actual bday..but i reali touched tat u all willing to sacrifice u guyz precious time especially those sitting for stpm trial on 20 sept..thx very much...

september babies

cakes from my dar dars


cake from consumer club bod

still gt many more pic...

11 September 2010

Kluang Joint Installation ~ 10.9.2010

10.9.2010 is the Joint Installation of Leo Clubs of Kluang,Kluang East and Kluang West in the morning...whereas at nite is Joint Installation of Leo Club of HSBP,SMKSDE and Chinese high school bp .

finally i found back the passion towards leo club...
i had lost this passion few years ago..where i stop attending outstation leo install...
in tat period, i found tat i'm lost...
whatever things toward leo, i already lost my passion...nt interested
because i was once felt disappointed...
felt no hope in leo club..
felt nobody care bout it..
until yesterday, i found back the passion...
where i saw a lot outstation leos..travel a long journey to come kluang n bp install

this year i saw leo club of smk chung cheng(kelantan),sm chong hwa(kelantan), leo club of sam tet(ipoh),leo club of batu lapan(teluk intan,perak),leo club of la salle(pj),leo club of usj 8 (subang)...they travel a long journey..
they inspired me..
no matter how far or how impossible is the things,
it will happen when u wish to do it...
i never expected this few club will come to Kluang install..coz it reali too far for them...
they r superb friendly..very nice...n very crazy...n especially lion alan thoo and lion marcus....
from them, i had learnt a lot...
every sacrifices will worth it,coz u gain in the another way...
u might nt realises the gain at this moment...but u will realises it soon..

i had sacrifices my time of study,n my energy..
but i gain back a lot of friendship,happiness,passion towards leo and joy...


i will upload other pic soon

08 September 2010

生命中的朋友

在我们的生命里。。
有很多的朋友。。。
可是又有几个是你真真的生命中的朋友呢?
我很开心我有一群好朋友。。。
我相信她们将会是我生命中的朋友。。
最真诚的朋友。。。最有心得朋友。。
我爱我的朋友。。。
这首歌我想献给我身边的每个朋友。。。
希望他们能找到自己的生命中的朋友。。



24 August 2010

my 1st bday gift 2010

i received my 1st birthday present of this year..
actually tat present is from myself..
i bought a mp3 online..
and it reached 2day..
i already wish to have a mp3 long time ago..
but parent dun allow...
mayb for u all..mp3 already outdated...but for me...it is quite good already...

心酸

不知道为什么心那么的不开心。。。
有可能是你的关系吧。。。
看到一些令我伤心的事情。。。
这不是我一路以来希望的吗?
为什么发生了。。我就那么多伤心。。。

我以为一切都结束了。。
可是原来是还没。。。

心酸。。
可是又能做什么呢?

22 August 2010

我是个没有安全感的小孩

我是个没有安全感的小孩。。
我走路的步伐很快。。
我怕黑。。
我怕一个人。。。

我从小就是觉得没有安全感。。。
虽然我父母和家里人都对我很好。。
我小时候有想过为什么父母都不疼我多点。。。
毕竟我是家里排名第三的。。
中觉得父母比较疼最大和最小的。。。
就是没那么疼我。。
我就觉得我做的事情都是错的。。。
其实到现在我还是有一点这样的想法。。。
因为不管我做什么中觉得都是错的。。。。

我是个没有安全感的人。。。
所以我渴望着有人能给我安全感。。。
我从小到大。。
有什么心事和秘密都不敢跟别人说。。
怕说了,全部人都懂。。。
我从小就把自己的心事全都放在心里。。
有时候是觉得很辛苦。。。
可是这是改变不来的。。。

小时候都觉得父母都不够爱我。。
都是爱我的姐姐哥哥弟弟比较多。。。
现在我才发觉原来我父母都很爱我。。。

朋友多,知己少,能说秘密和心事的又有几个呢?

朋友多。。知己少。。能说心事的更加少。。。
朋友多人。。很难找到知己的。。。
对我来说。。
虽然我有很多个好朋友。。
可是当我有心事时。。
我都不会找她们。。
因为担心打扰到她们。。。
她们都很忙。。而且现在又要考试了。。
有谁那么得空理我呢。。

每当我拿起我的电话时。。
我就会一个一个号码去按。。
去找我可以聊心事的朋友。。。
每次都是找不到。。。
心很伤心。。
我有那么多朋友,好朋友。。
竟然没有一个可以聊心事的。。

有可能是我自己的问题吧。。。
我很少会找人讲我自己的心事和秘密。。。
有可能是我的自我保护能力太强了。。
令我不容易的把心事和秘密跟人家说。。
虽然是自己的好朋友。。。
这个我的好朋友们都知道的。。。

朋友多,知己少。。能说心事和秘密的更加少。。
能说秘密和心事的又有几个呢?

19 August 2010

不公平!!

为什么这个世界那么现实?
为什么那么不公平?
为什么我们做了那么多。。
可是 拿到的竟然比哪些没做什么事的人来的少。。

其实我做事情时。。
我是不会要求回报的。
可是我只是不服气为什么他们没有做什么东西。。
可是又可以拿比我多。。。

为什么可以这样的?
有时候觉得自己所付出的。。。所做的东西。。
都很像白费的。。。没有用的。。。
没有意义的存在。。。

只是不爽。。。
哪些没做事情的人还在那边吵说做什么不给他们多一点。。。
可是他们根本都没有想过。。
他们做的是什么?
值得要人家给他们多点吗?
我们要多点都没有。。。
我们做比你们多很多倍可是。。。
我们的到的还是那么少。。。

这个是世界一点都不公平。。。
有人对我说。。。
reality is cruel。。。
我承认。。。这句是说的没错。。。
可是为什么要这样!!

16 August 2010

consumer trip~ 14.8.2010

我才从consumer club的trip回来。。
这次真的玩的满开心的。。
疯狂的玩。。。
这次这个trip里面有4对情女。。。还有2对是还在发展的。。。
看着他们牵手的去逛街。。
羡慕是当然有的。。。
可是也是习惯了。。

我战时都不想拍拖先。。
所以羡慕玩了就要回到现实。。。

这次的trip我买了很多巧克力。。
我回到家也吃了好多。。。
哪里知道头又开始痛了。。。
贪吃的我。。怎样都要吃的。。。
后果就要自负了。。。
头很痛。。有可能是压力大的关系吧。。。
我有偏头痛的。。
压力大。。不够睡。。就会头痛了。。。

这次的trip学到的真的很多。。。
很开心。。
不知道及时还有机会一起去旅行。。。

11 August 2010

no point crying over split milk

3 months left..
No matter like it or not...
there are no more chances to turn back...
The moment i choose this path...there are no 2nd chances for me to choose again..
no more turning back...
the only way is face it bravely n continue walk ahead...
no point crying over split milk...
no matter what happen...i still need to face it...
the road is chosen..it is my choice...
so i cant regret upon my choices..

i need to strive until the end..
hope all my frenz also will do the same things...
strive for our future...
3 more months...
i believe all of us can pass it v flying colours...
gambatek...
all the best

05 August 2010

love

2day physics exam...
i had a lot of time left...
suddenly think about a things....

actually wat is love?
love among family members...
love among friends....
love among lovers...
among this three kind of love...
i prefer 1st n 2nd one...but nt 3rd one...

in my opinion, 1st n 2nd one wont get hurt easily...
the 3rd type of love easily get hurted..
1st n 2nd type will last for a longer period compared to 3rd...

so i prefer nt to have 3rd one at this moment...
mayb after i become more mature in dealing with relationship between people...
onli i consider bout the 3rd type of love...

i'm still a kid in dealing 3rd type of love...
without much experiences will make me hurt easily...
so i decided nt going to hv 3rd type of love so far...
i'm promise myself nt getting involve in 3rd type of love for this moment..

so i need 1st n 2nd type of love a lot~~
so will you all give me 1st n 2nd type of love??

03 August 2010

chemistry test

1st time felt so contented and satisfied when answering chemistry test...
mayb for u guyz..it is a normal things..
but for me..it nt...
coz usually i didnt prepare for exam since i'm start studying form 6..
felt happy tat i manage to answer the quest in the quest paper confidently..
although nt all i know how to answer...
but at least more than half i answer..
i'm having confident of scoring better marks than last time...

29 July 2010

救生圈

突然觉得我之前原来是一个救生圈。。
自己太笨了啦。。
竟然没有发现。。。

我不是要说是谁的错。。
只是突然就有那种感觉。。
虽然时间不长。。。
可是还是觉得不爽。。。
我不是在增对谁。。

就觉得,该次不能那么笨了。。。
该次真的要考虑清楚了。。
才做决定。。。
我不要再做救生圈了!!!

人生短短几十年。。。
不管是开心或者伤心都要过。。
到不然我开开心心的过完我剩下的日子。。。
我祝愿每个人都能活得幸福美满。。。

要幸福噢~~~ 要开心哦~

慧萍上

26 July 2010

我很开心

我很开心看到你找到你一路以来在追求着的幸福。。。
虽然说你现在不能拥有她可是我相信未来你一定可以的。。

不知道为什么看到你找到你爱的人。。
我会那么开心。。
有可能我真的放的下了吧。。。

我的生活又回到当初那样。。
为了功课而忙碌。。。
可是我很开心。。。
有时候会埋怨功课多。。
可是没了功课我根本都不会去动书本。。

今天听到我朋友做host。。
今年她就会去japan exhange。。
多么的爽。。
我从form 4 就想去了。。
可是家境不是很好。。没能力去。。
因为去一次最少都要rm6k。。
羡慕她。。我只能读好点书。。。
进到大学再去Aiesec 的internship咯。。

24 July 2010

终于我做到了。。

终于我做到了!
很开心。。
我终于放的下了。。。
不再常常伤心了。。。

现在我终于可以领悟到为什么人家说放的下真的很难。。。
之前我朋友失恋时。。
我就跟他们说。。。
如果放不下的话。。不能忘的话。。。
就把它放在心里的最里面。。
把它变成你成长的养分。。。
这样才能活得开开心心。。。

我现在终于可以做的到了。。
虽然说我们没有真实的开始过。。
可是上次你真的给我觉得我们应经开始了。。
好才我对你的感觉没那么深。。。
好才你早跟我说。。。。
所以毒还不深。。。。
所以才能放得下。。。

最后还是想对你说。。谢谢你。。

21 July 2010

我才发现

原来我才发现。。
我放不下你。。每当一个人坐着时。。
都会想到你。。。想起你对我说过的话。。
我觉得我因该学会放手吧。。

竟然你都可以做到了。。
为什么我不能??
我一定要学会放手。。
不然我会很辛苦。。。

一档感情没了联络。。
着就代表了一切都结束了。。。

你都能做的到不联络我了。。
我不知道你是不是还当我是朋友。。。
就感觉上你很像在逃避我。。。
你令我觉得我联络你是不因该的。。
你令我觉得我联络你是在打扰到你。。。
有可能是我想太多了吧。。。

一旦分手了。。真的不能做朋友嘛??

19 July 2010

讨厌!

讨厌!!!讨厌!!!讨厌!!!!
恨恨恨恨恨恨恨!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌!!!!!!!!!!!!!

生活步伐快乐很多

最近的生活步伐过的满快。。。
有时候真的没有时间休息。。。
有时候真的想停下来不再走了。。。
有时候觉得真的没有时间休息了。。

那天hari koko前一天
 为了帮忙club 准备hari koko和做气球模型。。
整晚都没有睡觉。。。
就做这个做那个。。。
我和其它的三个朋友都没有睡觉。。
就弄东西咯。。。
hari koko 当天又忙的要命。。。
有要去帮bsmm档口和consumer 的。。。
这里跑下哪里跑下。。。
真的有点想晕倒了。。
因为太累了。。。
可是整个hari koko 完了。。。
看到有那么多钱就很开心很满足。。。

考试也是要到了。。
老师们都在追syllabus。。。
有时候真的追不上老师的步伐。。
可是我会尽量去明白他们所教的。。。

有时真的很想有个肩膀可以靠一靠。。。
让我休息一下。。。
可是都没有。。。
所以要好好的加油吧。。。
还有几个月吧了。。
就要考完试了。。。

17 July 2010

心有点不舒服

今天在面子书上看到你的status时。。。
心真的有点不舒服。。。
那时我想。。你能那么快就找到新的了。。。
这就令我觉得你之前所说的东西都是虚伪的。。都是骗人的。。

我上次有问过你。。。
你有没有爱过我。。。有没有对我有感觉过
你说你不肯定。。。。
我就再问你。。。。
你是喜欢我们在一起的感觉而不是真真的爱过我对吗?
你说可能吧。。。
当知道了你的答案。。。
心在那一刻真的很伤心。。。

我曾经有想过我是不是她的代替品。。。
我是不是爱错人了。。。
这些我战时还找不到答案。。。

可是最后。。
我还是要祝福你们。。
希望你们能幸福快乐。。。
你可以答应我吗。。尽量不要伤害她好吗?

13 July 2010

新的开始

新的开始。。。
我要把不开心的事情都忘掉!!!!

考试又要到了。。
要加油!!
不能再拿到上次考试的那种成绩了!!!!
我一定要比上次的成绩好!!!!

慧萍加油!!!

19 June 2010

MYC

MYC is stand for Miracle Youth Conference...
Date : 10-14 june 2010
Venue : UPM

i get info bout tis myc through my dar dar..joey yap..where she get info from mr.jien wai...
bcoz of tis i hd an opportunity to participate in myc....
at first, i'm so scare to participate it coz i cant find partner to go v me...
but finally i found 4 paloh girl, shirley n my bro...tis conference is superb awesome for me...coz in it i learnt a lot bout environmental stuff... especially those scary facts...i reali cant imagine how much we waste juz by using stapler..a lot scary fact awake me....

Day 1..
we get into our own group...my group is group 5 aka rojak 5...
my group consists of me..charnice (sexy), marcus , jun hong, yumi (ley huan), and yoyo...
my group is a group which onli hv 6 member..where others group hv more than tat...although onli 6 of us..but we get close within half day...i strongly felt de team spirit among us...where we enjoy the process nt the results...and the cooperation n trust among us....
in 1st day, we hv a lot physical activities...one of it is splashing of water..tis is superb fun..where u get it correct u can splash water to ur opponent...btw in tis section, we hv to answer those scary facts which we wont tink bout it.....
bside tis splashing water, we hv a lot station games n square dance...it reali amaze that they can dance a lot square dance...i love it...but i onli learnt few...actually a lot more to say..but i cut it to short...

04 June 2010

妈妈别哭 我去了天堂

妈妈别哭 我去了天堂


随着地动山摇的一声巨响

我看见你跌坐在嘈杂的操场

撕心裂肺的呼喊还在我耳旁



妈妈别哭 我去了天堂

满天的星星可都是你的泪光

黑暗之中我不是孤独地流浪

同学们手牵手嘶哑地歌唱



妈妈别哭 我去了天堂

老师说那边再没有鸟语花香

所以我恋恋不舍回头张望

绿水青山却是一片苍凉



妈妈别哭 我去了天堂

但是我舍不下曾经的梦想

帮我把漂亮的书包好好收藏

留恋着黑板书本和课堂



妈妈别哭 我去了天堂

只是我等不及看到绿色的军装

我睁开眼要看到你活得坚强

你把爱把我的支柱照亮



没有我的日子

你把爱给活的孩子吧

karma

mid year exam finally finished...
in these few week...
i didnt study much...every subject onli study a bit...
mayb dun hv the mood to study or i become more n more procrastinate...
watched tv all the time and surfing internet...

in these few days...
i realise that without effort..i wont be able to achieve what i wished...
no pain no gain...
when i received back my exam paper...
i realise that i didnt put effort on my studies..
and just saying i get bad result because i cant perform well...
all this is a karma...is a cycle...
how much u sacrifice...how much u will gain...

this time when i received back my exam paper...
i do felt sad....and felt sorry for my parent...
because i cant perform well....
but what to do..
everythings had become a results...
cry over spilt milk is no more use...

i have to try to cover back my studies in this short 2 week break....
hope i manage to do it..

22 May 2010

很多人,因为寂寞而错爱了一人,但更多的人,因为错爱一人,而寂寞一生

1.如果以后你会不经意地想起我,请别忘记我曾那样深深地爱过你:偷偷地看你,偷偷地想你,偷偷地爱你—— 最后,偷偷地哭了!


2.只要你能记住我,哪怕用恨的方式也好. 而当我试着恨你,却想起你的笑容。

3.当爱不能完美,我宁愿选择无悔,不管来生多么美丽,我不愿失去今生对你的记忆,我不求天长地久的美景,我只要生生世世的轮回里有你!

4.当你眼泪忍不住要流出来的时候,睁大眼睛,千万别眨眼!你会看到世界由清晰变模糊的全过程,心会在你 泪水落下的那一刻变得清澈明晰。盐。注定要融化的,也许是用眼泪的方式。

5.原来,寂寞时是自己的手指数脚指;原来,思念时是连呼吸也会心痛;原来,一个人就是一辈子

6.哭,并不代表我屈服;退一步,并不象征我认输; 放手,并不表示我放弃;微笑,并不意味我快乐!

7. 在爱情没开始以前,你永远想象不出会那样地爱一个人; 在爱情没结束以前,你永远想象不出那样的爱也会消失;在爱情被忘却以前,你永远想象不出那样刻骨铭心的爱也会只留淡淡痕迹; 在爱情重新开始以前,你永远想象不出还能再一次找到那样的爱情

8.你看得见我打在屏幕上的字,却看不到我掉在键盘上的泪……

9.痛过,才知道如何保护自己; 哭过,才知道心痛是什么感觉, 傻过,才知道适时的坚持与放弃, 爱过,才知道自己其实很脆弱。

10.有些事,我们明知道是错的,也要去坚持,因为不甘心;有些人,我们明知道是爱的,也要去放弃,因为没结局;有时候,我们明知道没路了,却还在前行,因为习惯了

11.你不知道我在想你,是因为你不爱我,我明明知道你不想我,却还爱你,是因为我太傻。也许有时候,逃避不是因为害怕去面对什么,而是在等待什么。

12.天空没有翅膀的痕迹,但鸟儿已经飞过;心里没有被刀子割过,但疼痛却那么清晰。这些胸口里最柔软的地方,被爱人伤害过的伤口,远比那些肢体所受的伤害来得犀利,而且只有时间,才能够治愈。

13.很多人,因为寂寞而错爱了一人,但更多的人,因为错爱一人,而寂寞一生。我们可以彼此相爱,却注定了无法相守。不是我不够爱你,只是我不敢肯定,这爱,是不是最正确的。人最大的困难是认识自己,最容易的也是认识自己。很多时候,我们认不清自己,只因为我们把自己放在了一个错误的位置,给了自己一个错觉。所以,不怕前路坎坷,只怕从一开始就走错了方向。

14.我放弃你的时候也放弃了自己,没有你我的心也死了。并非别无选择,只是不想一错再错。

15.有些事不管经过多久都不会淡化,虽然总是用冷漠去对待,可是他却是我心中永远痛,一旦稍稍触及便痛不欲生

11 May 2010

站在别人的立场

just dont understand y kids nowaday dont know to appreaciate and stand on others shoes to c a things...
for instance, those junior...
they r complaining bout the orientation program and the attire they needed to wear...
they never thought about the hardwork of those ppl behind the scene r doing...
eventhough i'm nt mpppu nor those helper..
just that i felt 不爽 their attitude n they way they think...

those mpppu and helper sacrifices their precious time to prepare and organize the orientation programme..
even sacrifices their sleeping time, revision time and studying time in order to make this programme successfully....
we are going to sit for our mid year exam on 26 may 2010 which is 2 more week time...
those mpppu and helper..putting a lot effort on it...
but wat they gain?
only a certificate....
but wat they lost??
time..studies...academic performance...(in my opinion)

11.5.2010

2day..is 2nd day where lower six (1st year of pre-u) registration...
there are facilitator to bring them travel around the school and introduce every part of school to them...
this make me recall back what i had experienced in form 1 and 1st year of pre-u...
where i was brought to visit the school...
a place i was not familiar when i'm form 1....
when i'm form 1...i thought kluang high school (stk) is a very big school..where i can saw 2 big field in the school..
but now..for me...i think quite small...
just about an hour walk can finish every part of the school....

seeing them walk by...really make me thing about my young day...
thinking that i'm old enough dy..
because this year is my last year in pre-u or can say as last year of secondary school dy...
i cant stay and study here anymore because i going to finish up all the courses here...

without realises that...now already may...
few more month i going to sit for stpm exam..
where tat exam will become my stepping stone to enter local university if i manage to get a good grade....
otherwise..it v be my obstacles....
without a good result in stpm..i have to use my spm results to study in private university in order to finish up the courses i wanna study....

so...i cant be so procastination dy....
i'm going to change!!

02 February 2010

sukantara ~ 2.2.2010

2day quite happy...
quite a long time dat i didnt contribute any marks for my sport house dy...
2day our acara is 100 m and lontar peluru...
as usual i sure wont pass de lontar peluru...
no matter how fat i'm ...i still dun hv tat energy...

already quite a long time i didnt pass de time set for 100m...
2day finally i did it...
coz usually i v left bout 1 or 2 step to reach end pt after time up...
2day i manage to pass it...
it quite shocking..
moreover, many ppl were shocked dat i manage to pass...
even teacher thought i failed...
but i again proven tat i did it...
heheh...
quite happy...
finally can contribute a mark for my sport house...
coz others acara i wont be able to contribute dy...

i finally had made it!!
我做到了!!!

25 January 2010

有时候觉得哭真的是发泄的方式。。。
很久没哭那么久了。。。
那天。。
就在学校哭了好久哦。。。
有半个小时吧。。。如果没记错的话。。。。

哭了之后真的感觉比较好多了。。。
有时候好想一个人在某个角落低哭。。。
没人理我。。。

压力太大了吧。。。
读中六对我来讲压力满大的。。。
虽然都你们来说并没有什么压力。。
可是对我来讲不是。。。。
压力很大。。
可是我就是没那么坚持的去读书。。。去温习。。。
我真的没心情啦。。。

谁可以救救我??

活在面具下

我们总是活在面具下。。。
我不相信如果你说你并不是活在面具下。。。
每个人都活在面具下。。。

请问你们。。
活在面具下会辛苦吗??
对我来讲很辛苦。。。
我觉得快呼吸不到了。。。。

有时候我比较想选着活在没带面具的生活。。
可是这是可能的吗??
对我来讲满难吧。。。。
带着面具来做人对我来讲是在保护自己。。。
不然自己收伤害。。。

我学会了要自我保护。。。
不然自己伤的根严重。。。。
我怕被伤害。。。
怕再跌倒后爬不起来。。。

有时候被伤害过很多次。。。
就会自我保护。。。
怕被伤害了。。。

我能活在没有带面具的生活上吗???
就是没带面具又不会被伤害的情况下吗???

12 January 2010

my feeling towards my studies

2day..we gonna pass up maths 2...
den when i arrive sch...
i juz keep copying...
reali felt bad bout it...
coz de whole chapter i nt understand it well...
i juz blindly copy...
copy juz for pass up...
tis is my life now....
i gonna change it...
i dun wanan tis kind of life anymore...
i gonna change!~!!!!

now i reali felt tat studying form 6 isnt as easy as i thought...
as free as i thought....
my sis n bro alwayz said form 6 very easy de la...
but during theirs batch...
they dun hv all tis stupid new system...
they can go back at 1.05pm..
which is impossible happen nowadays in form 6 new system...
last time they no nid do wat kolokium...
no nid koko until 3 hours a week...
no lecture n tutorial tis system
but tis all happen on us...

my schedule

my exhausting schedule....


monday ~ 7.20pm - 2.30pm schooling~ 4pm-6pm sport practice
tues ~ 7.20pm- 2.30pm schooling ~ 5.15pm-7.15pm MUET tuition
wed ~ 7.20pm-1.30pm schooling ~ 2.20pm-5.30pm koko ~ 4pm-6pm sport practie
thurs ~ 7.20 pm- 2.20pm schooling ~ 2.20pm-3.30pm schooling ~ 3.30pm-5.30pm kolokium ~ 7pm- 9.30pm chem tuition
fri ~ 7.20am - 11.55pm schooling ~ 12.30pm meeting ~ 5.15pm - 7.15pm PA tuition
sat ~ 3.30pm-5.30pm MATHS T 1 tuition

reali busy....

sch reopen

sch juz reopen bout 2 weeks...but it seem like reopen for bout half a year dy...
de new system of form 6 now r different from our seniors eventhough different compared to last year lower six....
now ...
wed ~ 7.30am till 1.30pm study..den 2.20pm - 5.30pm extra cocuriculum...
thurs ~ 7.30am- 1.30pm & 2.30-3.30pm study...den 3.30pm-5.30pm kolokium.,...
reali very tired de lo....
summore now homework need every week pass up...
no more like lower six tat time...
tat time we onli nid to pass up when teacher finish teach 1 chapter..
now no more....
reali exhausted...
summore now gt sport practice leh...
even worse...
finish sch at 2.20pm...den 4 pm nid go back sch for sport practice until 6pm...