small small de edu fair~~

2day..
xing ying,shih hsin,my bro n me went to a very small de edu fair...
at prime city...inside de small small hall...
erm...our 1st stall is help college..

as we all noe dat help college is the most famous with their psychology...
but oso de most expensive one~~~
b4 tis i was planing to study psychology...
but i dun noe well tis course...
in this small edu fair...
i asked a lot quest bout it...
to let me noe wat actually psychology is...
actually many career are related with psychology...
now onli i noe tat actually there are no 心理医生tis occupation de...
i bet u all also shocked rite?
i was shocked...tat guyz told me tat actually we all had a wrong concept on it..
and dun noe wat is psychology...
we all alwayz said de 心理医生 is clinical psychologist and psychiatrist....

as i noe dat...study psychology doesnt mean to be a psychiatrist...
coz i noe dat inside psychology there are a lot branches...
after tat guyz explained to me wat are the branches in psychology..
there are a branch about child psychology...
i mayb will study psychology and become a child psychologist...
actually i asked a lot of quest there...
but is quite impossible for me to write out all of it in here...
hehehe...coz i'm too curious dy..hehehe...

now i gt an overall pic on wat i wanna study in de future..
either study psychology or tourism management or communication...
but i not sure which one should i choose...
i hope can get sum opinion from u all....
communication here mean is public relations field..mass communication n etc...
psychology ~ i will choose child psychology
tourism management ~ bout to plan and manage the whole tour plan...nt being a tour guide...

2012

2012 tis movie..
i had waited since it been released...
until 2nd december onli gt opportunity to watch it...

2012 is the end of the world??
when watching tis movie...
a lot of the movie makes me wanan scream...
coz it too frightening..too scary...unexpected...

is it we can use money to keep survive no matter wat is happening?
富有的人就可以活比较久吗？？
为什么只有富有的人才能买到那个船票呢？？
那些贫穷的人怎么办？？

wrote tis quite long time ago~~

lower six life

想回刚开始读中六时。。。
份班过后就满伤心的。。。
应为不能跟我的好友们同班。。
渐渐的认识了许多的朋友。。
都跟他们的关系搞到满好的呢。。。

之前发生了很多不愉快的事情。。
现在什么都决绝了。。。
以前看错人了。。
现在看清楚了。。
以前误会了人。。。
现在觉得自己错了。。。

时间真的能改变一个人。。。。
那我来说吧。。。
我现在的思想一定是比以前的我来得成熟。。
哈哈。。。


那天雪棋就问我们。。。
如果我们能回到从前。。。
我们会想回到几岁。。。
我好想回到kindergarden那时后。。

应为还小。。
没面对到什么压力。。
开开心心的过一天。。
天真。。

last day in lower six~ 19.11.2009

不知不觉的半年就这样过了。。。
我从一开始读中六时。。。
我就说。。。
中六是我最后的选着。。
我不想读中六。。。
中六很幸亏。。。
可是我现在应景读了半年了。。。

在这半年里。。。
发生了许多的事情。。
喜怒哀乐都有。。
满怀念这半年里的生活。。
应为我这辈子只是读中六一次吧了。。

过了这一年半。。。
我就不知道我未来是怎样的了。。。
是读书还是做工？？
这个我也不知道。。。

在读lower six的最后一天。。
竟然下了很大的雨哦。。。
很想去淋雨呢。。。
可是不能啊。。。

不能再那么懒惰了

跌倒了。。
能再爬起来吗？？
我还有勇气再爬起来吗？？

很怕自己就这样被达到了。。。
我能勇敢的再站起来吗？？
谁也不知。。。

现在中六了。。。
不再像中四和五那样了。。。
不能burn midnite oil了。。。
最后一分钟读书都没有用了。。。
我必需要对自己严格一点。。。
不要再让自己那么懒惰了。。。
要不然就不能进到本地大学了。。

那时候就需要很多钱去读私人大学了。。
我不想burden my parent....
我的父母应景老了。。
他们都很累了。。
爸爸每天做工做到那么辛苦。。
我不能再让他承担我的大学学费了。。。
如果读私人的就要他出很多钱。。。

我一定要加油。。。

exam finished

exam juz finished...
actually i didnt put much effort on this exam...
but i'm disappointed with my results...
althought i know tat i wont get a good grades...
eventhough the exam is quite easy for certain paper...
but i cant score...
lack of concentration during revision..
lack of practice...

i quite tat my pa essay for sastera part get 21.5 marks..
which is the highest in the class..
but my science part de essay...
onli get 9.5 marks...
sad...yet happy...
den when i get my maths T paper 1...
i was shocked...
i didnt expected i v get tat low....
i onli get 15 marks...
which is much lower than my previous test...
tis is my fault..
coz i didnt do much revision...
cant blame anyone...

fear to accept yet need to face it....

peace poster competition zone 18~

kluang representative to kl peace poster competition

winner

                                            

1st runner up

2nd runner up

peace poster competition ~ 1.11.2009

2day..early in de morning i went to sjk (c) pa yai for peace poster competition...
i arrive there about 7.30am...
i'm the earliest leos there...
everyone arrived about 8.10am...
crystal ( my president) told me to contact jia wen or yih ming when i arrived there..
i called jia wen..which i thought is ssaj president jia wen..
but i'm wrong..
when they arrived..only i know tat jia wen is from stabk..
and she has a same spelling name with that jia wen..

then we start to help those lions to set up everything...
after helped they to arrange tables and do some decorations..
we set up registration counter..
each counter 2 leos..
i with wei shan ( if nt mistaken) one group..
he expect me to write chinese name of those unregistered participant..
i told him i cant write chinese la...
then he ask the participant write themselve...
very funny lo..he from chinese school..but chinese very poor....

then everythings go smoothly...
we saw a lot of talented kids...
because this competition is just for primary school student...
reali admired their drawing...
this make me think back how i was when i'm in kindergarden and primary school..
because i alwayz participate colouring contest in kindergarden and rarely participate drawing competition in primary school...
realy a lot of sweet memories that i recall back when saw they colouring and drawing...
i think now i cant even draw or colour properly..
hahah....

we took a lot of pictures...
more pictures in my facebook....
after that the whole competition finished..
we helped to clean up...
then had our lunch in Kim Wah Loon Restaurant...
RM 150 per table...
but we no need to pay...because lions are paying for ours...
heheh...have free lunch....

10 leos helper...                                                             

taking picture with lions...

在班上

最近在班上少了说话。。。
很多人都来问我。。。
你还好吗？？
做么不开心。。。
做么脸那么臭。。。
做么少了笑容。。。

我选着了说。。。
我还好。。。
我没事。。。
这是真的吗？？
我在欺骗自己和你们吗？

在班上我选着了不出声。。。
有人认为我怕她们。。。
而不去找她们聊天。。。
我是对她们心谈了。。。
是她们开始不理我现。。。
为什么我要主动去找她们。。。

认识我的人都知道我的性格。。。
都会懂我是个怎样的人。。
我并不是怕她们！！
是她们这样对我。。。
你要怎样对回她们？？
笑着不要脸的过去找她们吗？？
我做不到！！！
我不是那么假的人。。。

她们选着了不理我。。。
为什么我必须要去烦她们。。。

心酸

当初是谁说要一起读书的？？
最后有做到吗？？
说好了一起读。。。
结果呢。。。。
自己在那里搞小圈圈。。。
被我看到了。。。


我问你们。。。。
为什么去图书馆读书没叫我。。。
当初是谁说要一起读书？？
这个叫一起啊？？

我问过你们很多次了。。。
你们给我的回应是什么？？
不理我。。。
这就是你们给我的回应。。。

什么都没说。。。
这个叫朋友？
这个叫一起读书的好友？？
我当你们是好友。。。
你们确当我是什么？
一个不重要的人。。。
心酸。。。

拿真心来对你们。。。
确换来的是什么？
伤心。。。
心谈了。。。

我不会再去烦你们了！！

有可能对你们来说我很小气。。
很看不开。。。
这就是我。。
不是看不开。。
是心酸。。。。
我应景看到很开了。。。

乎列

乎列


这个字对我来讲不是一个陌生的字。。。

从小到大。。。

都是被人乎列的那个。。

有时要说应景习惯了。。。

可是我还是不习惯。。。。

我讨厌那种被乎列的感觉。。。。

有时候静下来才觉得。。。

一切都不一样。。。

一个人坐在课室了。。。

不讲话。。。

果然是没人发觉我的存在。。。

这代表了什么？？

代表了。。

我的存在是没人发现到的吗？？


一个人在走廊站着。。。

的感觉好孤单。。。

好寂寞。。。

好伤心。。。

可是。。。就是这个时候好让我想清楚。。。。

我是个怎样的人。。。。。


有时候我真的很讨厌自动去找人聊天。。。

从小到大都是我做主动的那个。。。。

有时候觉得自己好不重要哦。。。。

生命中的朋友

there r a lot of ppl that walk with us through our life
sum r passby onli..
sum had left a footprint in our heart...

whenever i faced prob...
there r ppl who alwayz listen to me...
support me...
reali appreaciate them a lot...
without my frenz...
i wont be brave to stand up again...

obstacles is awating me.....
i will try to pass through it...
whenever i fall down..
i v try be brave to stand up again.....

i love all my frenz.....
muackzz....

熬夜

i still remember those old times...
i use to stay overnite...
making frenz's bday gift...
chit chatting v frenz....

a lot of memorable memories....
time passed very fast...
sumtings had changed....

sum of my best frenz had changed...
sum friendship had broken...
sum relationship r nt like last time dy...

everytime tink back those old times..
reali felt it was very sweet...
hope to get back to tat time...
i v try to appreaciate wat i have now...
otherwise i v regret...

陈颖见~~ 熬夜 ~~~

就在最近这几天


我总是发呆老半天

盘旋在脑海中不去的是

你的话语和难忘的笑脸

离开学校的日子很空闲

我总是有时没事就温习过去

还有重看我们的照片

飞呀时间为何那么快的不见

一起欢笑一起流泪的日子

将这几年点缀成美丽的画面

飞呀我请月光洒在我的身边

我将学习如何去思念

我将熬夜回味这几年日记每一面

我曾经

为你熬夜只为了做你的生日卡片

一起熬夜一起准备明天的测验

过了今天也许只能说再见

能不能再次陪我熬夜聊天

为你熬夜帮你录下你最爱的影片

一起熬夜一起在网上废话连篇

过了很多天我们熬过多少夜

就让我唱这一首歌

请陪我熬夜到明天
 

sensitive

am i too sensitive??

哭

心情很烂。。。
很不开心。。。
发生了一些事情。。。
人总是喜欢许下空白的承诺。。。

不能做到就不要答应人。。。
最近发生了很多事情。。。
每当我生气时。。
我的眼泪就会慢慢的想流出来。。。

可是我忍着不让它流。。。
很想痛痛快快的哭。。。
在学校哭。。朋友们一定会问为什么哭。。。
在家哭。。父母或兄弟会问。。。
到底那里才是我可以哭的地方呢？？
我很想哭。。。

眼泪不知不觉的流了。。。
我忍不到了。。。
忍的感受真辛苦。。。
我很想哭。。。
不想让人懂。。。
不想回答人家的问题。。。

我累了。。
很想一睡就不期。。
不想面对显示。。。

where my courages?

sumtime....
i reali hope tat i can back to those time ...
tat i dun noe anytings...
at least...
tat time i have more courage to explore new tings or life...
as i grew up...
i had become coward....
scare to explore tings...or my life...

2day after i ate my lunch..
i was standing at de corridor of lower six floor...
watched those ppl working in de construction site...
thinking a lot of tings....

i reali scare to explore life now...
scare to face obstacles...
i nt brave as last time dy...
my heart nt able to withstand any failure dy....
b4 tis..i had met a lot of life obstacles...
make me become more mature in de way of tinking..
i dun noe y last time i gt de courage to stand again after falling down
due to obstacles....

izzit tat when i grew older..i become more coward?
mayb...

the road infront is untravelled...

a lot of obstacles waiting me infront ...

i'm scare....

scare to explore...

where i gonna find back my courage??

mountain climbing ~ 26.9.2009~

2day early in de morning...
i walk from my house to gunung lambak o...
reali a warm up...hahaha...nt very far la..onli take bout 6-7 min lo...
arrive gunung lambak there bout 7.20am..
den meet v xing ying....

den 2gether with her went to de bridge there..
den waiting for them to come...
2day our climbing member gt
me~xing ying~rou ee~jing ting~shih hsin~zhou sheng ~ eng kang....
5 girl 2 guyz...

bout 8am onli we start climbing...
i nvr thought tat zhou sheng will bring his dog n mr.ng dog come..
reali freaking shock....
unexpected....i admit tat i reali scare of dog..haha..
den i walk at de back ...
let yen walk 1st...

me quite a long time din climb mountain dy..
bout 1 yrs le gua....
den i less exercises summore...
so when climb until half...
i already cant tahan nid rest dy...
nt becoz tired..
is my heart beat too fast dy...
i scare i cant stand it dy...
so i rest many times on de way to half peak...

den xing ying teman me lo..
wait me many times..
reali felt sorry...coz delay her time..
den de rest oso wait me oso...
so sorry for my clumsyness....

we reach at de half peak bout 8.30am...
den we rest bout half an hour there...
taking a lot of pic...
yen n eng kang still go rendam their toes n legs...
den we chit chat there lo...
n gt uncle tell zhou sheng tat...
next time dun bring doggie climb mountain..
coz scare de doggie bite ppl..
summore de malays afraid of doggie...

den when we turun bukit..
wah..i damm fast...
no nid rest...
wakakka...coz it is much easy than climbing....

den we go eat breakfast...
at kit siong...inside tmn aman...
den ate dy...we chit chat until 11.30am onli go back home...

tis is quite unforgetable moment....

我很羡慕你们

我真的很羡慕你们能在外头读书。。
读自己喜欢的。。
追求自己的梦想。。
努力的向梦想前进。。。
好羡慕哦。。。

虽然每次看到你们回来的
都在那里投诉在外面有多幸亏。。
有多伤心。。
面对很多问题。。。

可是对我来讲。。
这个是我们必须要面对的挑战。。
只是现在你们比我早出去面对这些挑战。。。

我真的很想出去college或者uni读。。
可是应为了家境不是很好。。。
家里还有姐姐，哥哥和弟弟还要读书。。
所以负担很大。。。
如果不是的话。。
我早就去外面读我想要的lo。。。

虽然在读中六这里学到了满多的东西。。
可是这毕竟对我想读的东西都没什么关系。。。
我改天又不是想读engineering或者读关于科学的东西啦。。。

我觉得现在的课业。。
很多。。多到我喘不过气。。。
虽然这个对你们来讲是很平常的。。
可是对我来讲我有时候
是觉得我读到很辛苦。。。
毕竟这个不是我想读的。。。
酒会读到有点辛苦。。

有可能在这一年半的时间
让我想想我之前选的道路有没有错。。
在这一年半。。
有可能我会换我的道路呢？？
这个谁都不知道。。。
在这一年半。。。
课业发生很多的事情。。。
有可能那时我的试想变成了根成熟了吧。。。

很羡慕我那些可以在外面留学的朋友们。。
虽然时很幸亏。。。
可是我在这里帮你们加油！！！

我太敏感了吧。。

今天我们有一个gathering。。。
大多数的朋友去外地读书都有回来。。
我们今天就有出来聚一聚。。
去到kluang mall我们就分了两批。。。
一批在charms喝茶。。还有一批在k-box唱歌。。。
我当然是去k-box唱歌的啦。。。

一开始是很开心的。。
很high的。。
不知道及时。。我就静下来了。。
有可能是我太敏感了吧。。。
我坐在角落。。
静静的不出声。。。
果然是没人发觉我的存在。。
处了shih hsin还会看看我。。
其她的。。。应该都没当我存在吧。。。

我坐在那里想了很多。。。
我的眼泪差一点就流出来了。。
我忍者。。有可能是你们点的歌的关系吧。。
一边唱一边想起一些事情。。。

不知道为什么今天那么emo。。。
你们晚上有去sam的家搞party。。。
又没人跟我讲。。。
突然间唱歌唱到一半就问要不要去。。
我都不知道你们的计划。。。
改天要问人时。。请早点通知。。

今天在喝茶时。。
xing ying和ju lyn 就在那里讨论数学的功课。。
听到很想打她们。。
出来喝茶就不要讨论功课吗。。。
然后其他的人就忙者在那里聊天。。
只有我,shih hsin和lynn静静的在那里。。。
有时候真的不知道要跟你们聊什么。。。
应该我们的生活生涯都不同了。。。
少了很多话题。。

有时候我是觉得。。。
我的存在是没人发觉的。。。
有可能我太敏感了吧。。。

心情不好

心情不是很好。。。
我是个很敏感的人。。
这个你们应该都懂的。。

我很想问你们。。。
当你当他/她是好朋友时。。
你们是不是会去关心他/她？？
会不会担心他/她们？？
肯定是会的吗。。。
不是吗？？

可是又有几个是懂呢？
他/她们会珍惜吗？？
我不觉得。。。

我想问问。。
当他/她们不领情的时候。。。
是不是心会很痛？？？
是不是新心不舒服？？
对我来讲。。
我会。。。
心痛了。。
心被伤害了。。
最后决定了。。。
不再去关心他/她们了。。

以后都不会在
讲任何的事情了。。
你要怎样就怎样。。。

再次的被伤害。。
心应景不能再容纳了。。
决定了
你的一切我都不再关心了。。
关心你换来的是受伤。。。。

15.09.2009~part 1

2day is my birthday..
15 sept...
18 yrs old ago..
a girl was born....at hospital kluang..
at 11 am...
her journey is started on 15 sept 1991...

after 18 yrs....
15 sept 2009...is her 18th bday...
b4 her bday..she received a lot advance bday wishes...
on her bday...she received lagi banyak wishes...either in msn,facebook or sms nor call...

early in de morning...
she went to sch as usual..
normally at 7am..
we still can enter through gate C...
but dun noe wat happen..
2day she get scolded...by pn.leong..
coz enter there...
den i v yan hong..enter gate B..
den kena scold by miss neo again...

early in de morning kena scold by 2 teacher neh...
so bad luck....
fortunately,
2day de chem compulsory expt quite easy..
so quite happy...

den recess time..
fu qi n fei lu n etc..
come to sing bday song for me...
den a lot wishes from my frenz...

den muet time waiting for teacher come..
we took some pic....
den my cam no battery dy...
so sad..

good frenzz

xue qi ~ me ~ mei xuan ~ tong ming

den during math 1 lecture...

de whole phy class student sang bday song to me n puoh yoon..

quite touched..

haha...

oh ya...

forgot to mention tat...2day gt many girl n guyz bday o...

tat is

~ pek ying ~

~ puoh yoon ~

~ hui ni ~

happy bday ya~~

不要利用我！

你们说要帮我办一个生日会。。
可是你们叫的人全部都是我不熟的。。
全部都是你们的好朋友。。
我只是知道她们是谁而跟她们又不是很熟啦。。
你们要搞聚会也不用找一个接口说
要帮我做一个生日会。。。

如果我去的话。。
我不就是一个人孤孤单单的坐在那里吧了。。
应为跟你们叫来的朋友都没共同的话题聊。。
所以我就不想去。。。

可是你又说。。。去啦。。
我真的不想去。。。
你说你来我的补习的地方帮我庆祝。。
可是我真的不想。。。
我都不想跟你们庆祝。。
为什么硬硬要帮我做一个生日会呢。。
我都跟你说过了
我不要。。
所以就不要逼我。。。

其实我不是很想庆祝生日的。。
我只是想跟我的好朋友们出街喝喝茶。。聊聊天就够了。。
不用搞那么多。。
这样我就很满足了。。
很高兴了。。

我不想你用“我要帮你做一个生日会”
来做你的接口来搞聚会。。

对不起如果我说的话
伤害到你了。。。

i miss my god dad~yee leong

my god dad (yee leong) had further his studies at taiwan...
know him for bout 1 year dy...
he made me have a determination on helping my sch de leo club...
he is a superb active leo...
he sacrificies a lot for leo club..either his own club or others...
i n him kinda gt some similiar characteristics...
mayb bcoz his bday is 14 sept..
n mine de is 15 sept gua..haha...
same is virgo de...
so our thought kinda same...
but i nt tat optismistic as him...
he very brave..very tough...
i reali admire his braveness....
superb geng...
manage to finish all de tings at one time...
wont complain anyting upon facing obstacles...
a very caring person...
how nice if i can be like him...
so tough...

he had flight to taiwan last fri (4.9.2009)
kinda miss him...
coz when he left malaysia...
i seldom will attend outstation leo club activities dy...
coz he kinda like a spirit for us..
most of us kinda no heart dy to attend outstation leo activities..
coz he nt at malaysia...
he had insprise me a lot..
had motivate me a lot...
reali kinda miss him...
i love him as a good frenz...
coz he reali gave me a kinda indeed frenz feeling...

after i finished my f6 life...
i mostly wont join  leo club again...

1.11.2009

28.8.2009

time passed so fast

time passed so fast...
extremely fast...
without realise tat...i gonna turn 18 years old dy...
without realise tat....i had passed through spm exam...
without realise tat....i already studied form 6 for bout 5 month dy...
without realise tat....once again leo club install had finished....
without realise tat....i had passed through de heart bleeding time (bout mpppu election)...
without realise tat...i had growth up...
without realise tat...i had changed.....

in tis year...
i had passed through many tings...
time is a best medicine for wound....
time is a tools used to heal wound...
i still remember tat last year spm trial is during my bday...
i still remember tat when i'm f4..u all gave me a bear...
everytings passed so fast...
it had become a part of my memories.....
sweet memories....

love

love...
wat is mean by love??
a person can easily say i love u...
a person tat..
dont know u well...
din even c u b4...
noe u juz a short periods..
juz sms v u few weeks...
can easily said i love u...
say may i be ur gf/bf...
say i wanna be v u forever...
for me...
tis is ridiculous....
coz u dun noe a person well...
den u said wanna be v her/him..
tis nt a true love...
tis mayb is an emotionally action..
coz too lonely for a long period...
i dun believe tis kind of relationship....
will u all going on v it??
will u all accept him/her??juz bcoz u r lonely.....

for me...absolutely wont.
coz i nt love him..den i wont accept him as my bf...
will u all accept tis kind of relationship??
i wont...
will u all accept him/her juz bcoz u r lonely??
i wont...

care

sumtimes..
when u r care bout someone...
who take he/she as a good friends...
tat y u r care bout them..

but...
ppl v thought u r so kepo...
it is none of ur business...
i like la...no nid u care...

sumtimes these words reali hurts others heart..
mayb u r nt purposely say so..
but next time when u say it..
can u tink twice?
it reali hurts....

it make like wat i care isnt worth it...
wat for i wanna spend time to ask ur condition..
it is bcoz i care bout u as friends..
but wat u had said reali hurts me...

i decided..
to be a quiet person..
wont care bout u anymore...

install

haizz...
leo install...
coming soon..tis fri is leo install (28.8.2009)
tis year seem like very hard to sell the ticket..
now even sell until rm 13 or rm10 oso dun hv ppl go..
haizz...how come??
coz of H1N1??
coz exam??
coz tuition??
i reali scare tat tis time v lose money leh..
afraid we cant cover up the budget...
although my prenz is so dedication..
but now i'm scare she will gif up upon facing failure tis time..
coz install is a big activities for us...
i hope everyting will be fine...
will run as wat we planned...

tis is my new blog..

tis is a new start of my blog....
b4 tis my blog had certains tings happen..
make me wont blogging over there...
my old blog add is
http://skyskyblue9115.spaces.live.com/
there will hv my sweets n bitters memories....